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"Its like a magnet except instead of domains its feelings. If your sad its making me sad, just because." ♥ ♥ ♥


If I could love you more, I would. 

Re-Blog

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Humanity

Fragile
We are
Trying so hard to be strong
Our humanity
Is the
Weakness
We try to hide
Our flaws
Behind facades
Of hard
Hearts
Broken so easily
By the wrong
Words
Spoken into the
Air
Around us filled
With the fragrance
Of countless tiny
Flowers
Clinging with such tenacity
To the branches
Where they were
Formed
From the dust
Spoken into existence
By His voice
Yet with the slightest touch
They fade from purest white
To a wilted brown
No longer filled with
Life
Bruises our souls
Like the brush of skin
Shrivels the freshest
Blossoms
Spring again with passing time
Growing fresh each
Day
Is another chance
To let our fragile humanity
Be stripped away
So that we can be made
New
Minds fixed on our
Creator
Of the smallest flower
He will take away
The crushing pain of a heart
Broken
Vessels will be filled with His
Life
Made full of joy
In the beauty of our
God
Loves us.

His Words

For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, 

To give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. 

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels,

That the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us. 

We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; 

We are perplexed, but not in despair; 

Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, 

That the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. 

                                                                             -Corinthians 2:6-10

April 15th

A year ago
I heard the words
That rocked my world

A year ago
I spoke the words
That changed my heart

Standing in the growing dusk
Hands full of books
So close
That our skin brushed
Looking into each others eyes
We are loathe to say goodbye

His brother beckons him
And he nods
But before he goes
He says,

"Marissa, have I ever told you that I love you?
Really told you?"

And when I shake my head
I can feel my heart
Begin a wild beat
For as I look into his face
I know what he is about to say
And the very thought
That he will speak those words
To me
For the first time in his life
To me
That he would let down all his guards
And bare his heart
For me
Scares me beyond all measure
And then he says it

Speaking into life
The thoughts and feelings
That have hovered
Soft and sweet
Between us

"I love you."

The force
Of his emotions
Overwhelms me
And I wonder
If I can truly say
"I love you, too"

Is it possible
That in a few short months
The green eyes
Staring so intensely
Into mine
Have become the same eyes
I will long to reveal
Every part of myself to?

I hesitate
For those words
Mean more to me
Than simply describing a passing emotion
Or cementing a temporary bond

But when I look at his face
As he waits
With such a mixture
Of longing and uncertainty
I find no words to speak
Except for

"I love you, too"

And now
A year later
I know
That the words I spoke
Meant more
Than I ever imagined
For those green eyes
Have stolen my heart
Away.

His Words

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; 
I have called you by your name; 
You are Mine. 
When you pass through the waters, 
I will be with you; 
And through the rivers, 
They shall not overflow you. 
When you walk through the fire, 
You shall not be burned, 
Nor shall the flame scorch you."
                           -Isaiah 43:1b-2

New View

The day stretches on
As homework waits to be finished
My mind stumbles over problems
Left half done
Just like my missed classes
Have left my knowledge only partially complete

Nightfall comes and still yet
My work cries for completion
But for some reason
I rest easy in the realization
That I do not understand
And am, indeed, completely confused.

I am surprised at my lack of frustration
For though part of me chafes
At my obvious stupidity
Another part is relieved
To encounter a problem that refuses
A quick capitulation to my demands.

If only I could look at life
Through the same set of lenses
And take in stride the trials and setbacks
Which I so frequently encounter
Instead of letting hardship poison my heart
With disappointment and defeat.

It's time to view the world in a brighter light
To see my problems as foes to be vanquished
My heartaches as chances to grow
Rather than letting my troubles
Become barricades to the vibrant future
That God has set before me.

Blog Worthy

       
      I don't tend to write actual blog posts very often and by "actual blog posts" I mean posts about me and my life that aren't in the forms of poems or pictures or random reflections.  However, last night something happened that is deserving of a post all to itself.  This may or may not surprise you, but I'm one of those people who loves to watch random youtube videos and, even worse, likes to follow different youtubers quite religiously and by "religiously"  I refer to the fact that I check my subscription page every night before I go to bed.  Yeah, I know.  That makes me pretty weird, but the truth is?  I don't care.  In my humble opinion, youtube was a marvelous invention.  


       Anyway, back to the point.  Last night, one of the 7 youtubers I follow gave me a shout out in his most recent vlog.  This youtuber happens to be a fairly recent startup with very few viewers and even less subscriptions, but his vids are generally amusing and I was quite happy to be mentioned.  So without further ado I present a  hawaiiboyMock1 production.  If you fast forward to 9:09 you will miss a lot of epicness, but you will also be able to hear my name mentioned.  


       This is a shout out to you, hawaiiboyMock1!!  You rock!  :D  And to all my readers?  
Watch, comment, like, and subscribe!

Defeat

I am weighed down by this burden that I cannot define
Stretched so thin that I feel sure I will soon be torn asunder
Muddling my way through this mess of life
I have never been more lost
I thought I knew what I wanted
And where I was going
But you have confused me
You have brought my plans
Tumbling down and I am
Undone.

I used to be so strong and ready to tackle anything that life threw my way
But it seems that all the fight has gone out of my blood
For I am always so tired and indifferent
I never thought this day would come
When I would be handed the keys
To the brightest of futures
And instead of joy  and excitement
I would be consumed  with doubt and fear
I never thought I would feel so
Defeated.

Beaten down, broken-hearted, weary of this world
I can no longer summon the courage
To reach out to you again
For each time I renew my faith in you
Each time I let my hope spring anew
You trample it down without hesitation
Sorrow turns to bitter disappointment
And my disappointment fuels a growing anger
I am so very tired and so very
Alone.