Coming Home

Let me come with you.
I'll fight the shadows with you.
I'll chase the sunrise with you.
Just take me with you.

We'll run away together.
 I'll be yours forever.
 Let's run away back home.

Because where you are
Is where my heart is
And where my heart is
I find home.

So please, let me talk to you.
Just let me walk with you.
Please, let me come home.

Struggle

Fight the urge to fall
For I fear to fail
And yet it seems
My destiny is to meet defeat
So all that remains
Is to fall into my fear
And secure my failure
In a warm embrace
Before it crushes me
Beneath the disappointment
Of hopes I cannot meet

"The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone" -Psalm 118:22
"and whomever falls on this stone will be broken; but on whomever it falls,
it will grind him to powder."                                                                     -Matthew 21:44

May I fall, not into my own failure, but into line with His ways so
that my fall is broken by Him and I am broken on Him instead of being
crushed to powder as I stand in His way.

Lord, grant me the grace to believe what I know to be true,
that Your way is far better than my own.

The Leaves' Love

The leaves whisper to the sky

Dancing in the breeze

Their soft rustle moves the air

Even as they turn eager faces to the sun

They cannot help but flirt with the earth

As their undersides send flickering shadows

Spilling to the ground

Green and blue and brown

Gradually their flirtatious banter 

Grows into an irresistible attraction

Changing from green to brown 

To match their lover down below

Despite their castle in the sky

They have fallen for the ground

And now they gladly fall to it

For the chance to caress its face

As they skip happily in the breeze

Their soft rustle growing into a cheerful snap and crackle

Crushed beneath passing feet

They are pressed into earth's sweet bosom

Speechless now

For no sound could express the sheer joy of this union

Though their outward beauty has fled away

And they no longer possess the coy charm of their youth

These leaves have never been happier then now

Joined at last with their true love

They are dirt. 

People almost always portray it as sad...the leaves dying and stuff....but, really, they are just falling in love with earth.  :)

Flying High! (with my butterfly)

My very own rendering of the Hofstadter Butterfly.  I'm so happy right now!

Library Regulars (a rap)

Me - ohhhhh...the library regulars are starting to show up...I feel like I should introduce myself 'cause there are these two other guys who are ALWAYS in here with me. haha.

My big bro-  Library regulars:

Don't get me wrong girl

cuz I'm totally straight

But I'm a library regular

and I don't wanna hate

But why you been coming

all around here?

Is something messed up

with your personal gear?

P.S.  My computer is broken so I've been doing a lot of my work in the library lately.  Hence, the absolute perfection of my brother's little ditty.  :)

Interviewed

So this afternoon I was interviewed by my friend over at Bacon and Betelgeuse.  Had to answer some tough questions, like who I am, why I blog, and where in the world did I get a name like Counting Pennies.  It was fun and it made me think a bit.  This post is a bit of a break from my normal material, but I think it's good to mix it up a little and, for those of you who are interested, this really talks a little more about who I am then I typically share.  Enjoy!  And check out Bacon and Betelgeuse for more thought provoking posts on everything from gaming to God to life.

Bacon & Betelgeuse: Why Counting Pennies?

onelovingsister: Let's see. I have a thing about pennies. My bf and I would always exchange pennies. Kinda random. Anyways, I was thinking I would probably be doing a lot of waiting in the next few years....and you know how when you're trying to make time pass....like to go to sleep or whatever you start counting things? Like counting sheep? Except pennies instead. :) My mom suggested it actually and that's why I decided to go with it.

B&B: Describe yourself; who do you think of yourself as. what is your self identity?

onelovingsister: I am a girl who has a lot of dreams and a lot of potential. What I want and what others want for me rarely line up. Sometimes I feel I lose myself in the struggle to be what I SHOULD be according to everybody else and what I WANT to be when the day is done. I love to write poetry, but I'm not that good at it. I love cooking and kids and best friends. Math is one of the things that keeps me going every day....math...and my mom. That is my biggest goal in life, to be a mother, but we shall see. I would say the single most defining aspect of my character is my faith. Jesus is the single most important person in my life and I hope to keep it that way. Always. Also, I am a hopeless romantic and I am in love.

B&B: Why did you decide to start a blog?

onelovingsister: Last fall, when my bf transferred schools and subsequently broke up with me, I found myself really struggling, emotionally, academically, even physically, to cope with my feelings. I spent a lot of time very very depressed. My grades started to suffer and I ended up needing to spend a lot of time talking to some close friends, my mom, and one of my professors. I realized that, for me, verbalizing how I felt helped me work through my feelings, a little bit at a time. I posted my stuff on facebook at first, but then I felt a little bit uncomfortable with that because many of my posts were pretty personal. That's when I decided to start a blog. It's my own little place to bare my heart to the world.

B&B: Speaking of personal, why have you recently decided to make your blog public?

onelovingsister: I don't really know. I'm still not ready to have it on facebook. I guess I just feel like it's time to...hmmm...move on? Perhaps that's not quite the right way to put it. As I mentioned earlier, this whole blog thing stemmed from personal issues I was dealing with. I guess I had always thought they were sort of short term issues? Things I would get over pretty quickly. That I would be able to resume my "normal" life soon. Well, I've come to realize it's not going to be like that. I'm in love and I'm waiting and I think I'm going to be doing that for quite a long time and it's okay to acknowledge that and accept that and share that. It's not something I need to cover up or hide from everybody or be ashamed of. It's just how it is. Yes, most of my friends think I'm stupid and crazy and I completely understand where they are coming from, but this is something I feel God is calling me to. So I guess I'm just ready to open up a little bit. Besides, I like to share. :)

B&B: What do you do when you're not writing?

onelovingsister: Ahhh....now that's easy. When I'm not writing, I am working or sleeping or eating or cooking or working out. :) Work consists of studying for school, doing math research, or lifeguarding at my school's pool. I usually do not get enough sleep. I generally eat too much. I love to cook and bake, but only for other people. I do not like to make food for myself. I love to turbo kick (you should try it!) and actually recently got certified as an intstructor. I also love swimming. Sunshine and water make me happy. :) However, my number one favorite thing to do when not writing is going to the beach with my friends and family. I love to hang out with the people I love and the beach just can't be beat. :D

B&B: Anything you'd like to add, or any questions you would like to be asked?

onelovingsister: I would like to add that you are one of the reasons I first considered blogging as my "outlet" and that I really enjoy reading your non-gaming related blog posts. :) Oh! And readers should never hesitate to comment! Even when my posts seem pretty personal or sensitive or whatever. Comments are fun. 

B&B: Well, I've run out of questions. Pleasure interviewing you, and may your blog receive many hits!

onelovingsister: haha. thanks! :D

We are Love

We are all love of family,

We are love of all the family

We are love.

We are love.

We are love.

Everyone is love

Everyone in this country is love.

But

God,

God is in this country,

So God is love,

We are loving we are good we are nice.....

God created everything,

God created everything for us to play in.

That's love.

Everyone is love

All the people are love

Except

the trees are love

Family of trees

The gravel is love

Family of gravel

The grass

All the grass

Is love.

Family of grass.

I love you

We are

Family of love.

               -My three year old brother