Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories they're haunted. 

Don't tell me we were meant to say goodbye 

Don't say you love me so when you're gonna let me go
You can't make it alright when I know it's all wrong.

I just want you to know that I couldn't have loved you better

But you're already gone

This Too Shall Pass

I was sure the day would never come

When I would say, 

"We're through.  It's done."

In my innocence I thought

That we would never be apart

But now I'm here and you are not

I was sure our love could pass the test

I prayed 

That God would bring His best

But His best can be deceiving

Right now

It's left me bruised and bleeding

Still, I know that He is great

His plans for me

Are worth the wait

You broke my heart

You watched me drown

But God will never let me down

He'll pull me through this hurt and pain

What seems like loss

He'll turn to gain 

So I'll close the door upon the past
I'll shut my eyes
This too shall pass

Lost

Lost
I stand here among the dust
That was stirred into a billowing cloud
Lifted from the ground by hurrying feet
I stand here and watch him leave
I long to hold him close but already he is
Gone

Tears
If only they would come
My eyes are dry
My heart too sore to cry
I can only watch the dust
And wait for it to settle so I can
See

Prayers
Come unbidden to my lips
That he will be safe
And stay close to his God
That I will see him soon
And that I remain forever in his
Thoughts

Alone
The tears come at last
Sweet relief for my weary mind
Clearing my eyes to see that beauty still remains
Reminding me that God is close
I will wait for his
Return

Lost
Once again in the swirling cloud
Shaken up by the same hurrying feet
But this time they draw close and closer still
Wildly my heart beats, full of hope
Then, once again, he is here and I am
Found

3/10/2010

Save Me

Falling
Just to hit the ground


Please, just catch me now


Calling
Though no one's around


Please, just hear me now

Hoping

That love can still be found

Please, just love me now

Running
From the fears that hold me down


Please, don't just let me get away


Praying 
For a sign or sound


Please, just show me it'll be okay


Waiting 
To see if you will save me or watch me drown


Please, don't let me slip away


Save me from myself, 
Catch me, answer me, stop my escape
Give me hope, don't make me wait
Save me from myself 


Please, don't let me down

His Words

"You are worthy, O Lord, 
To receive glory and honor and power; 
For You created all things, 
And by Your will they exist and were created."
                                        -Revelations 4:11

OneRepublic

So I'm a little behind with my posts.  I don't usually skip days, but I haven't had internet this past weekend and I was too busy to write anyway.  I spent all of Sunday and Monday on Oahu, shopping, shopping, and shopping with my wonderful friend, Pac.  We had the most glorious couple of days and the cherry on top of the sundae was seeing OneRepublic in concert on Monday night.  It was truly unbelievable.  I won't even try to put it into words.  I will just say that I was giddy with excitement and happiness the entire time.  The song I found most moving when performed live was All This Time.  It brought me to the point of tears.

Disappointment

Resigned to the silence

I am prepared for the inevitable

Determined not to raise my hopes

For I already know that they would be dashed

When reality meets my expectations

I am not surprised
For it was this I planned for
The disappointment is avoided

Yet, somehow, all emotion cannot be evaded
And although it is not disappointment I feel
The bitter reality can not help but bring with it a hint of sorrow
Reminding me that all is not as it should be

And then, without warning or request, I hear your voice
I listen to your sorry excuses
And I try to stay strong
For I do not want you to hear the tremble in my voice

But as soon as the call ends
I burst into tears
Tears of sadness and frustration and confusion
And then the disappointment comes

I don't know when I lost you
I don't know why my love is not enough
I only know that it kills me to be seen as so unworthy and inadequate in your eyes
And it pains me that you don't even think my words deserve a reply

You see, I can bury my hopes
I can mask my disappointments
But deep down inside
It will always hurt me to know that you no longer care