Belief

"Love...believes all things..."

Without exception
Without qualification
Without hesitation

May God grant me the grace to love as He does.

Painfully Obvious

I used to always say that pain was irrelevant.

I thought I could always do what needed to be done no matter how much it hurt.

Now, for the first time in my life, I am tempted to quit simply because this hurts so bad.

I never imagined that anything could be so torturous for so very long.

I guess I was just naive, young and foolish some would say, but I thought time itself would numb my heart.

It has become painfully obvious that either time has failed me or I am failing miserably at waiting for enough to pass me by.

I can hardly bare it anymore.

I am drowning in this swamp of  sorrow and doubt, pulled under by the weight of my own despair.

I try to shrug it off, to stand strong, to make it through, but I just can't seem to gather the strength.

My trust in you is shaken and I have neither the heart to believe you nor the heart to reject you.
I can only pray that God will give me the heart to love you, unrequited, for as long as need be.

That He will give me the faith to trust that this time your words are as real as the pain I carry with me each day.

His Words

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, 
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised."  -Proverbs 31:30

"Do not let your adornment be merely outward—
arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— 
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, 
with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, 
which is very precious in the sight of God."   -1 Peter 3:3-5

In the Eye of the Beholder

Beauty is

Defined by you
Sought by me

An elusive prize

A shifting mirage of truth and lies

Is Beauty

The number of inches around my waist?
The number of boys who's lips I taste?

How I fix my hair?
What clothes I choose to wear?

Some nights I lie awake and wonder
What life would be like if I were

As lovely as the princess in a fairy tale
If I saw the number I wanted on the scale

Would you still have said goodbye?
Was your story just a lie?

Some days I just want to be beautiful.

Something Stupid

‎"If it's just something stupid ask for help because someone can help you. 
It's when you've tried everything and nothing works and you don't know 
what to do that's when you don't ask because no one can help you anyway."     
-my mentor. 


Which begs the question, what if you've tried everything, nothing works, you don't know what to do, AND it's something stupid?

Face of Love

Restless Fingers, Anxious Brain