Tonight, as I unpacked my bags from Cali and repacked them for Oahu I ended up sorting through the contents of an assortement of bags and backbacks. During this process of emptying and rearranging, I stumbled across a crumpled index card. On it was a few lines I jotted down sometime in the wee hours of the morning back in July of 2010. I found it interesting and somewhat encouraging to find that, over a year after I wrote the words and three months after finally hearing the crushing answer to the "question", my heart has not changed.
"Midnight comes and goes
I cannot bring myself to sleep
Uncertainty haunts my footsteps
What does the future hold?
I do not know.
I wait for the answer to a question
A question I did not pose and have already answered
I wish I knew what to expect, but only God does.
And then there are those three words
Three words I long to hear, but only from him
So I wait and hope and pray for the right time to come soon.
Please, Lord, give me your patience, grant me your grace, and let me be filled with your peace.
I am yours, now and forever. Be with me.
I love you, Jesus, but only 'cause you loved first."
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